Last year, I found myself in a situation that revealed both my flaws and God’s overwhelming grace. I entered a relationship that I knew wasn’t rooted in love. I felt lonely, unworthy, and as though this man was the only person who cared for me, even though deep down, I knew he didn’t truly love me. He was using me to take care of his responsibilities, but I accepted it because I desperately wanted to feel loved.
I felt like God was punishing me—not because He didn’t love me, but because I didn’t see His love as enough. My heart was full of lust, envy, and rebellion. Whenever God sent someone to correct me or warn me about my choices, I turned away and refused to listen. I felt envious of someone I didn’t even know and was overwhelmed trying to hold on to what I knew was fake love.
The pregnancy was one of the hardest experiences of my life. I didn’t love the man, and I knew he didn’t love me. He didn’t want the baby, and though he was kind at times, he wasn’t truly there for me. I kept my distance to protect myself and my child, but I was still left feeling alone, especially on the day of my miscarriage. He promised to hold me that night, but he never even called, and when I asked about it, he lied.
That moment was a breaking point for me. It was God’s way of opening my eyes to the truth: I was chasing something that would only lead to more pain. I realized that God wasn’t punishing me—He was protecting me. The miscarriage, while painful, became a hidden blessing. I didn’t have to become the mother of a child to a man with nine children, four marriages, and no real love for me or our baby.
Even more importantly, I saw how God’s grace was working in me. In the past, I would have responded to lies, disrespect, and rejection with anger. But this time, God allowed me to walk away without letting anger rule my actions. Instead, I extended grace, mercy, and forgiveness—even when it wasn’t deserved. That was God’s love working through me, showing me that I could be better and that He had better for me.
Now, I see the blessing clearly. I don’t have to carry the weight of that relationship or its consequences. God has freed me to focus on the path He has for me. I’ve started school, I’m pursuing my goals, and I’m learning to date in a healthy way. I call that relationship “practice” because it taught me what I need to look for and how to wait for God’s best.
Through all of this, I’ve seen God’s promises come alive: “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him” (Romans 8:28). He didn’t punish me as my sins deserved, but instead, He removed my transgressions and poured His grace into my life (Psalm 103:10-12). In my weakness, His power has been made perfect, and I am stronger because of it (2 Corinthians 12:9).
Scripture Foundation:
Romans 8:28 (NIV): “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”
Psalm 103:10-12 (NIV): “He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV): “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’”
Application:
God’s truth is unchanging, even when we make mistakes. He doesn’t define us by our sins but calls us to repentance and growth. Here are a few steps to help you feed God’s truth back into your life and see His love more clearly:
- Recognize and Repent
Take time to reflect on the choices you’ve made and the areas where you’ve strayed from God’s plan. Be honest with yourself and with God. Repentance isn’t about shame—it’s about turning back to Him and letting His love renew you.
Reflection Question:- Are there areas in your life where you’ve been resistant to God’s correction?
- Listen to God’s Voice Through His Word
God speaks to us through Scripture, reminding us of His promises and guiding us back to His path. Start small, with just a few verses a day, and let His truth fill your heart.
Action Step:- Read and meditate on Romans 8:28, Psalm 103:10-12, and 2 Corinthians 12:9 this week. Ask God to show you how these truths apply to your life.
- Extend Grace to Yourself and Others
God doesn’t hold our sins over us, and we shouldn’t either. Just as He forgives us, we’re called to forgive others—even those who have hurt us deeply.
Reflection Question:- Are you holding onto anger or resentment that God is asking you to release?
- Set Boundaries and Wait for God’s Best
Your worth isn’t tied to any person or relationship. Trust God’s timing and wait for the love He has for you. Start setting boundaries that honor both God and yourself.
Action Step:- Write down what you value in a relationship and commit to upholding those standards with God’s help.
- Celebrate God’s Grace
Take time to thank God for His love, forgiveness, and protection—even when you don’t understand His plans. Remember, every step back to Him is a victory worth celebrating.
Action Step:- Spend time in prayer, thanking God for the blessings you didn’t see at first.
Encouragement:
No matter what mistakes you’ve made, God’s love is constant and unconditional. He’s waiting with open arms, ready to guide you into His best for your life. Trust His timing, and know that His grace is sufficient for you.
You are not defined by your mistakes. God’s love for you is unchanging, and His grace is greater than any sin or flaw. Even when life feels overwhelming or when the weight of regret presses down, God is working all things together for your good. He sees your potential, not your failures.
Take heart in knowing that God’s plans for you are always better than anything you could create on your own. He is faithful to restore what’s been lost, heal what’s been broken, and bring beauty from ashes. Trust Him to guide you back to the path of His perfect love.
Prayer:
Father, thank You for Your unwavering love and grace. Thank You for not treating us as our sins deserve but instead extending forgiveness and mercy. We come before You with open hearts, seeking to draw closer to You and walk in Your truth.
Help us to release our mistakes into Your hands, knowing You will use them for our good. Teach us to listen to Your voice, to trust in Your plans, and to wait patiently for the blessings You have for us. Strengthen us to forgive those who have hurt us and to set boundaries that honor You.
Lord, remind us daily that Your grace is sufficient and that Your love is enough. Let Your truth be a light in our lives, guiding us through every challenge and trial. We give You all the glory for the hidden blessings You’ve already placed in our lives.
In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Call-to-Action:
Before you go, take a moment to reflect:
- Are there areas in your life where you’ve struggled to see God’s love and grace?
- How has God turned your mistakes or struggles into hidden blessings?
I’d love to hear your story! Share your thoughts in the comments below or message me directly. Let’s encourage one another to walk in God’s truth and grace.
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